Addicted To Hollywood Casino…
January 15, 2009
As many of you know I am in love with the casino. The sounds of the slots, the people yelling and cheering, the thrill of winning, the anger of that spin being so close yet never hitting and the high that comes with sitting at the first slot of the day.
Well, I believe I have gotten very addicted to this and have decided to step up and put a stop to it. After finding myself at the Casino a few times a week, some days even twice, it hit me…..damn I’m addicted.
Last night I went to my first meeting. I will no longer be available Wednesday nights from 6pm until about 10pm. I am very committed to these meetings and will not miss one if at all possible.
After hearing the personal stories of those who also attended last nights meeting. I am very Thankful I am seeking help now. Has my habit ruined my life, no but that’s only because I am strong enough to stop before it has a chance. Am I in debt over my habit, no but I was headed there. My bills are all paid but I am not sure I could have said that next month at the rate I was going.
How did I allow myself to get here, I only wish I knew. I am a very strong Lady so I do not know how I allowed myself to become so weak but I did. After winning a lot and losing even more I feel it is time for this cycle to end before it does take over my life.
Why am I sharing this with those I know and do not know. Because I believe in standing up for what I believe in and I believe in myself. That I can and will overcome this addiction. Also, I know others out there are in the same boat or have been and if my post helps anyone else, it’s worth it. Maybe someone who has been interested in meeting me now decide to keep clear, maybe, I hope not but I am me, nothing more, nothing less.
I admit to my wrongs, I admit to my faults…..so this is me saying I have an addiction and have for about 4 months now. Funny how I got so addicted in such a short about of time. It was a blast but it is time for me to step aside from gambling.
Thank you for reading this very personal story of mine. If you care to comment please do. If your desire is to bad mouth me for my addiction, please move on.
With Love, Tori
January 16, 2009 at 12:03 am
I love ya girl.. If you need anything or an ear to listen, Im there… you are strong, its why i love you -
January 16, 2009 at 12:12 am
Ciara,
Hey, laugh I thought it was funny.
I thank you for being such a good Friend. At 2am when I can’t sleep and I’m thinking of running to the casino……I will be catching you on yahoo.
Thank you for the time you gave me today on the phone. As you said, you mentioned my Gambling to me about a month ago. I knew I was addicted then but I wasn’t ready to admit it. That is why you didn’t hear it until today. The first step is to admit a problem.Until one is ready to admit it, there is nothing that can be done.
May I suggest a Meet n Greet at the Casino
Love to ya Ciara !!!
January 17, 2009 at 1:50 am
Hey Tori,
You made a very powerful and personal statement. Just an indication to me of what a really neat person you are. It’s been a pleasure to get to know you recently, at many levels. I look forward to continuing this relationship.
Take care, and hollar when you’re back in town.
Jim
January 19, 2009 at 5:43 am
Don’t doubt yourself babe.
Let your feet stand up for your beliefs babe.
I know what’s running through your mind.
You think you ought to capture time.
Make love, walk the straight and narrow.
Oh,oh,oh
Don’t doubt yourself gal.
Let what’s inside be your
guide you know darn well.
For all the wrongs been done to you
Is makin’ you prettier so don’t be blue.
The life you’ve lived and
what you’ve been through
you’re lucky.
Oh,oh,oh
Don’t doubt yourself when
Daylight fades and darkness begins.
It’s only come to show you that
You’re the one who knows where it’s at.
The rest who think they’ve got
it pat know nothing.
Oh,oh,oh
Don’t doubt yourself ’cause
At the end of your words no one applauds.
The truth is proven to be found
Hard to take the first time around.
So don’t you worry it’s gonna be all right.
Oh,oh,oh
Written by Jackie DeShannon
Performed by The Byrds
January 20, 2009 at 5:52 am
Tori Lee, good for you to put an end to it. I never gambled for this reason. I was very afraid I could not stop myself if I started. It just seemed like a big hole to me. I do have friends who gamble and can control themselves. I know I could not. Good luck on the road back to keep your addicition under control.
January 20, 2009 at 7:35 am
I would like to say Thank You to each and everyone of you for taking the time to give me your support. I have made many true friends through Escorting and I just adore each of you. I am positive with my meetings, my determation and the support of my friends and family I will overcome this addiction .
With Love,
Tori