Addicted To Hollywood Casino…

As many of you know I am in love with the casino. The sounds of the slots, the people yelling and cheering, the thrill of winning, the anger of that spin being so close yet never hitting and the high that comes with sitting at the first slot of the day.

Well, I believe I have gotten very addicted to this and have decided to step up and put a stop to it. After finding myself at the Casino a few times a week, some days even twice, it hit me…..damn I’m addicted.

Last night I went to my first  meeting. I will no longer be available Wednesday nights from 6pm until about 10pm. I am very committed to these meetings and will not miss one if at all possible.

After hearing the personal stories of those who also attended last nights meeting. I am very Thankful I am seeking help now. Has my habit ruined my life, no but that’s only because I am strong enough to stop before it has a chance. Am I in debt over my habit, no but I was headed there. My bills are all paid but I am not sure I could have said that next month at the rate I was going.

How did I allow myself to get here, I only wish I knew. I am a very strong Lady so I do not know how I allowed myself to become so weak but I did. After winning a lot and losing even more I feel it is time for this cycle to end before it does take over my life.

Why am I sharing this with those I know and do not know. Because I believe in standing up for what I believe in and I believe in myself. That I can and will overcome this addiction. Also, I know others out there are in the same boat or have been and if my post helps anyone else, it’s worth it. Maybe someone who has been interested in meeting me now decide to keep clear, maybe, I hope not but I am me, nothing more, nothing less.

I admit to my wrongs, I admit to my faults…..so this is me saying I have an addiction and have for about 4 months now. Funny how I got so addicted in such a short about of time. It was a blast but it is time for me to step aside from gambling.

Thank you for reading this very personal story of mine. If you care to comment please do. If your desire is to bad mouth me for my addiction, please move on.

With Love, Tori

New Photos…

Hello Everyone,

 I have finally gotten some new photos taken. A very sweet Gentleman took some during my visit. I hope you all enjoy them.

 xoxoxo,Tori